It’s really weird watching life go on around you when you and your family are impacted by something so personally traumatic. Like, on an intellectual level I really do understand that life goes on. Of course it does. Why would anyone else care that my grandmother passed away? That sounds awful. I mean, people are understanding and kind, but people die every day and if you didn’t know her why would you care? Of course life goes on. But it’s weird going online or walking around and hearing people laughing and posting jokes and enjoying life while I’m struggling with emotions and feeling numb and feeling depressed and reminiscing and loving my grandmother and thinking about life and death. It’s just a really weird thing. Here I am, feeling like the life I knew just kind of ended in a way, and watching life just march right on while wishing I could just stop it long enough to get everything handled and sorted out. I’ve been lucky in that I can pause as much as I can, and that Dan has been able to as well. I just wish I didn’t have things like homework to think about and that Dan didn’t need to worry about work and homework. But, somehow, life just keeps on going.
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Goodbye Grama
Grama holding my hand on my wedding day ❤
Grama #1
There won’t be many posts I don’t think. I’m in shock a bit, so I’m just thinking in short sentences and facts.
She has had massive amounts of strokes (her brain is full of clots). Luckily, she didn’t suffer. My grandfather just has to decide when to remove life support.
Thank you for all your good energy. My family could still use the strength, but Grama is resting forever now.
My Grama and Family Need Your Good Energy
(I just realized it’s April first; this is NOT a joke, this is just horrible timing for my family)
I found out last night, very late, from my sister that my grandmother was in the ER. Apparently, she had told my grandfather she felt like she was going to pass out and then she did and then she fell over and hit her head.
She’s been in the emergency room since then. They’re actually moving her to the ICU soon. She’s still unconscious, and they don’t know why. The CT scan was inconclusive, and she isn’t stable enough to do an MRI (she has too much equipment on and MRIs are too restrictive for everything). It sounds like they’re suspecting she had a stroke of some sort. The problem is the CT didn’t show one, and so they can’t treat it without knowing which kind (one kind is from excessive bleeding so you need to give blood clotting medication and one is from blood clotting and so you need to give blood thinners). Apparently, she also has a blood clot in her lung that is putting pressure on her heart; but she is already on blood thinner medication (normal prescription) so they can’t actually do anything without potentially making anything in her brain worse.
Grampa Update #5
Sorry it’s been quite some time since I’ve updated y’all about my grandparents. Don’t panic.
Grampa had been at home over a week now. He’s supposed to be using the statutory to go upstairs, but it’s slow so he doesn’t. According to my parents, he really isn’t listening to most of the doctor’s orders about physical activity. Oh well. Otherwise, he’s doing great!
Grama, actually, is the one having problems. Continue reading
Grampa Surgery Update #4
Last I heard from my dad, a few days ago, Grampa was doing very well. In the 3rd, he was in a regular (non-ICU) room. He was also very talkative, the post-surgery swelling was completely gone in his face and mostly gone in his hands. I haven’t heard anything else, so I’m assuming he’s just been getting better and better! Thank you so much for all the kind thoughts! If I don’t update again, just assume that no news is good news. 😀 Thank you again for all the love you’ve all been sending to my family, is been very appreciated.
Grampa Surgery Update #3
Dad visited with Grampa last night. He’s doing very well! Apparently he can sit-up and eat with minimal help. When my dad visited, Grampa was eating dinner. Dad said Grampa isn’t in much pain, so he’s also been able to get plenty of sleep and rest. I’m so glad he’s doing well! We’re still not out of the woods yet, so please keep your magical healing thoughts pointed his way… I’m sure they’ve been extremely helpful!
Grampa Surgery Update #2
I heard from my dad last night. He said Grampa was okay. He hadn’t woken up yet, which seemed odd to me, but the nurses said for his age and everything he’d gone thru it was okay. He was having a little bit of bleeding issues, but they weren’t concerning to the doctors, they just resulted in a need for another unit of platelets.
I just heard from Grama. She said he is doing okay and she’ll be going to see him shortly. My dad and aunt had already been to see him today, which probably means he’s awake and doing alright. I’ll get some more details from my dad later today!
Thank you again for all of the healing energy and love you’ve been sending his way! I’m sure it’s been helping!
Grampa Surgery Update #1
Grampa’s surgery started about 6am (he had to be at the hospital by 5am, so that’s the time I’m assuming they started). He just finished a little while ago (about 2:30pm I’m assuming). They’re closing him up now, since they had to reset the pacemaker (also pretty standard). It’s going to be awhile before he wakes up, maybe an hour, and he has to be in the cardiac ICU for 24-48 hours (standard procedure). He’ll probably have his breathing tube in for another 4 hours. He needed 2 units of blood, and 1 unit of platelets, which is not unusual for someone his age. However, so far it’s all been pretty routine and he is doing well! Thank you so much for all the positive energy you’ve been sending his way, I believe it really has helped!!!!
Grampa Surgery Postponed
Just so everyone knows (and so no one freaks out when I don’t update), my grandfather’s surgery has been postponed until Monday. So, I now have longer to freak out 
Finding Life's Silver Sun 