Oh man, do I miss hiking. Dan and I used to go hiking all the time. We both used to go hiking all the time long before we met each other.
For me, nature was always a kind of natural medicine. I’ve struggled with depression for most of my life, but being out in nature… well, that was a different story. Hiking out into the trees, getting away from people, getting away from cars, getting away from noise, it always calmed my soul down. I love the smell of pine trees, especially in the cool air, and the sound they make when the wind blows through them. It really is amazing how fast it can work. I have gone hiking because I was angry, because I was sad, just because I felt the need to, and it is almost always immediate. The second I’m into nature, I start to feel a change. Everything in my body relaxes. My breathing slows and deepens. My brain actually shuts off and focuses for once. I feel relaxed and happy.
Unfortunately, POTS has taken hiking off the table of options for now. I can’t walk long enough to hike comfortably, not without focusing on how painful my chest is. I also can’t do inclines. That’s the thing about Colorado: there aren’t really any wooded areas that aren’t hilly (or mountainous). The hikes I’ve done here have always been fantastic, but challenging. There are lots of hills. Dan can do long hikes with tons of hills just fine, but I can’t. I used to be able to try, but now I just plain ole can’t. Hopefully, I can soon though. I am doing better, but the long distances and hills are still difficult. Hopefully over the winter I can work up my cardio so that Dan and I can go hiking in the spring and summer next year.
Just staring at this photo makes me smile slightly though. I can smell and hear the pine in my head. The girl in the photo even has hair that is almost the same color as mine. I miss the forest. Maybe when Dan and I go out to California for Thanksgiving we can go hiking somewhere. At least in California I won’t be fighting altitude on top of the distance and hills thing. I know my hiking boots want to get out and walk around, and I don’t blame them, it’s been a while.
Assignment four for Blogging U Writing 101.
Today’s prompt was to write a post inspired by the image.